My beautiful guest, I'm so sorry

assalamu alaikum warahmatullahi wabaraktuh

i pray that you are all in the best of health, highest of imaan and that ramadan is going well inshaAllah

i sit here on the 29th night that my guest has been here (which has a chance of being laylatul qadr night) and look back at the time they have been here. As always before they arrive I have such high hopes and expectations of myself and then experience dips in the middle of their stay. I cant believe its nearly time to say goodbye, my guest i'm really sorry that i haven't been the best host yet you've been so generous.

Your spirit was felt in my family, we tried to be good with eachother and patient. Your spirit was felt in my neighbourhood, there was a buzz of generosity, sharing of foods, i heard people out late coming home from taraweeh.

Your spirit was felt in the ummah, people night after night donated towards the poor, needy, orphans, masjids, madrassahs(i got to say at this point how proud i have been especially of the bangladeshi community in the UK who have raised money every night of ramadan on channel S 814)

I have no idea whether i'll be here to see you again next year, i sincerely pray and hope that I will see you year after year and that this coming year I will be able to continue with the little good deeds I have done while you've been here and build up in even more and that i can be a better host to you inshaAllah.i pray Allah accepts our good deeds. ameen

“O Allah, forgive me. My Lord, I could have done more but I did not, so forgive me. My Lord, excuse my shortcomings and blemishes, You are indeed oft -Forgiving and You love forgiveness, so forgive me.”
ameen

Please remember the ummah in your du'as, the living and dead, may Allah SWT forgive our sins, save us from hell fire and grant us jannah

wasalam